Please Help Guide Me on My Journey

I don’t believe in luck! I believe we make our own luck in life. I can show countless times this has rung true in my life. However, if I did believe in luck, I might conclude I’m ridiculously unlucky in love.

I was recently accused of feeling sorry for myself as it relates to a failed relationship. The harsh reality was they were right. That doesn’t make the bitterness of the statement coupled with the woman who delivered it any easier to swallow.

As I explore this concept of Love with the detective skills of Sherlock Homes, I’ve learned the majority of single people feel unlucky in love but are somewhat optimistic their luck will change soon. The people who feel they have actually found their soulmate feel incredibly lucky, and have completely wiped the early bitter challenges of relationships from their memory. Those poor creatures in relationships that are not their soul mates, feel trapped, lonely and angrily the most unlucky people in existence.

Many people don’t realize what they want in love until they’re stuck in a relationship, and have sadly learned all the things they don’t want.

Here’s my strange conclusions from my extensive detective work. There is an innate fear in us that makes us so wickedly scared we’ll never find our true soulmate that we settle for anyone who is close. In many cases, these relationships end poorly.

However, there is an even worse fate. It is those unlucky souls who end up with a person you undoubtedly believe is your soul mate, but that person doesn’t feel the same way. The strange dichotomy is this means they are not your soul mate. When this occurs, it sure feels like the cold dark universe is out to get you.

There is an innate fear in us that makes us so wickedly scared we’ll never find our true soulmate that we settle for anyone who is close.

I have lost two women I’ve loved. One died in a horrific head on collision. This forever gouged a small piece of my soul which will never grow back. The second committed one of my two cardinal sins, “Never ever lie to me!” This impacted my ability to trust others, that I’m working on.

As for the baggage, that’s a story for another day. I will add this cliffhanger: My current baggage is preventing me from being with my soulmate. (Cue the Dun Dun from Law & Order.)

Love Entry #19

It was a bad day. I won’t go into detail, but the positive this will allow me to get back to my soulmate search. I know she is out there, and I will remain undaunted, unwavering and undeterred until I find her. Giddy up!!!

I would appreciate your wise counsel on this matter.