Please Help Guide Me on my Journey
I’ve had my heart torn apart twice. The first time, the perfect women of my dreams died. It forever changed the course of my life. My soul shattered in an instance. She and I fit together like perfect puzzle pieces depicting an epic sunrise. The second time I loved a woman she committed my deadly sin, she lied. It was about something stupid, but it cured my blindness to the brutal truth that she would never love me the way I loved her. All these years, they are the only two.
There is this connection when “True Love” exists that is more powerful than anything in this universe. It is my contention that most people never experience the grandeur of this love even once. My curiosity seeks to understand if can I find this Love in again another woman that has the capacity, courage and vulnerability to love me with the same all-consuming passion that I love her. Stay tuned for the conclusion of this wonderful love story or soul-crushing tragedy.
God has a funny, mysterious, beautiful and sick way of going about things.
Love Entry #3:
2/10 on day 2 of my challenge. Again I was a Lion! I approached a women sitting at the bar tonight of a local restaurant. We exchanged phone numbers. She was not my usual type with the exception of being a former college athlete, and I’m not 100% sure she’s not a Lesbian. If she is, we still had an engaging conversation. We didn’t make future plans, but I have her number.
My negative self-talk told myself she thought I was too old for her or too male, but who knows? The facts are: I approached her with courage and fearlessness.
ANY ADVICE??? OH, AND TELL YOUR FRIENDS ABOUT THIS POST, I NEED ALL THE HELP I CAN GET…
The deep love you speak of must be mutual, and it is exactly that what everyone is seeking.
For me, it works like a slow burn. But once I feel it, and possibly express it, it falls apart (in one unique situation that broke me in ways I never experienced before). And that was before the friendship elevated into romance.
Whole thing is confusing.
But for you, having had it, you know what it can be like. Twice! That is a gift.
I’m enjoying your journey very much but sadly, I have no advice. 😉